stuck in the game of golf

So....I am pretty obsessed with reading other people's blogs. That may sound creepy, but I figure it is no different than being on facebook or myspace. My loving husband, however, is violently opposed to all of the above. Despite this fact, he continues to remind me that if I like reading other's blogs so much, I should probably start my own. So, here goes....

Currently, I manage an LPGA event in good ol' t-town. My fellow coworkers and I call it the SGCPBJQH. I have managed golf tournaments, large and small, for four years now. I can't seem to get out of it. But here is the problem. You see, I don't play golf....I have never played golf.....and I probably never will play golf. I have taken lessons, I have gone to many a driving range, hell, I even managed a major championship. But at the end of the day, it is plain and simple. I don't golf.

I got into this wide world of event management when I thought I wanted to be a wedding planner. I mean I LOVE weddings. I am coming to realize, however, that I will never be a wedding planner. A "golf tourament planner" seems to be all I can do.

I have mixed feelings about being in golf. Somedays I love it-- it certainly is a challenge, but other days it wears me down so much I just want out. But the opportunities just keep coming and they ALL involve golf. Why is that? I am so curious about this path and why it has been laid out for me. Was I really called to plan sporting events? It is a question I ask myself about five times a day. I wish the reasoning behind it would reveal itself to me, but I have no answers, no explinations. I cringe when people ask me, "How'd you get into that?" Truth is, I wish I knew! And I wish I knew if this was really my calling or if I am totally off base. It's a daily struggle. I am grateful for consistancy and continuity and the blessings I have been given both in my career and outside of it.


In other news....I would hate it if my first post did not address the title of my blog: Forward, Dear. If anyone knows me they know that my all time favorite musical/movie is Thoroughly Modern Millie. This is a quote from that movie when Millie is trying to drive a car for the first time and she throws it in reverse and her priss of a friend, Miss Dorothy Brown, reminds her to go "Forward, Dear. Forward." It is pretty much a great phrase to live by. It continues to "drive" me through my career. (I am a sucker for puns).

And that, my friends, is it. Thanks heavens it's Friday.